3/27/17

After work I'm going to soak in the bath with a nice glittery bath bomb, deep conditioner my hair, and watch tv with a glass of sparkling wine. I'm insanely broke right now, but it doesn't even matter. I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and when it's good, it's really good.

1/21/17

I bought a spiral notebook, and I'm going to see if I can keep a handwritten journal daily for this year. I will most likely be neglecting this one quite a bit.

Some random things I just bought. I'm really excited I finally found a nice bow ring like my current cheap one that's losing rhinestones. This one is real silver and should hold up much better. Hopefully it looks as nice in person.

1/9/17

My uncle passed away in his sleep yesterday. He was 51 and a huge influence in my life. I'm thankful that because of a few birthdays and the holidays, I got to see him a lot the past few months. How lucky am I that I get to wake up another day and enjoy the time I have here. Right before I heard the news, I was having lunch with a very old friend who helped me see something in my life with a totally new perspective. I'm glad I opened up to her, and she's reached out already more than once to let me know she's here for me. My mom is hurting really bad over this death, and I think I have to make myself vulnerable and let her back into my life right now. My year is off to a rocky start, but overall I feel very hopeful and positive.

1/5/17

Jessica. Jessica. Giiiirl, get a goddamn grip on yourself. This is not cool. This is not okay. Starting today you're going back to your own little world. I feel like hibernating for this entire month and maybe the next month, and then I'll be back on track.

8/4/15

I ran all the numbers for possible salary scenarios in my future, and if any would afford me a new apartment. I came to the sad realization that it's just not possible. Anything "nicer" will land me right back into the prediciment I'm in, granted I'd probably have nicer windows and hardwood floors, but still. So one of my additional goals will be to transform my current place, and I think it's very possible. I already recaulked my bathtub, and it looks so much better now. I have a lot of ideas in my head, and it's making me look forward to getting my hands dirty.

7/27/16

I've been eating healthy for the past few years, but I'm really trying to get the full picture on what my body needs now. I want everything I eat to have a purpose.
I started making smoothies for breakfast that incorporate everything I've wanted to add to my diet, but didn't have a place for.
Berries, bananas, matcha green tea powder, ground flaxseed, yogurt, soy milk, cinnamon (just a little, read it's really bad for your kidneys), turmeric, almond butter, and whey protein.

For drinks I have my pot of morning coffee (studies are suggesting it might help prevent skin cancer, but who knows. I take all those studies with a grain of salt... sea salt. mmm), tea all day at work, and then as much water as I can drink before I feel like I might explode.

For lunch I have a salad, usually from Trdaer Joe's. I like the premade ones because it's cheaper than buying all the components and enough to actually have variety. This way I get a bunch of different veggies and proteins. My absolute favorite is a kale and slaw one that has cauliflower in it, and cauliflower is supposed to be incredibly good for you, yet it's difficult to really incorporate into anything healthy I'd want to eat frequently.

For a snack I've been buying trail mix.

Dinner has been my on-going experiment in "cooking". Most of the things I eat require just putting raw ingredients together, etc. I want to focus on soy, healhty fats, and protein. I've been eating cereal with soy milk, guacamole (tomatoes and avocado, yessss), brown rice with raw egg mixed in. I want to eat more beans and meat, so I'm going to try a healthy chili recipe soon.

Dessert is always dark chocolate.

In addition to this, I've been working out every day for a little bit, and stretching. This has put me in such a wonderful mental place. I feel wonderful.

7-6-16

I know very well you're bringing me down
I will follow, I will follow
For a little piece of heaven
I am ready, I am willing to drown

I've been waiting on your love
Baby, for too long now, too long now
I thought that I could change you like the others
But I don't know how, don't know how
It's gonna backfire
It's gonna backfire, baby
Gonna backfire, gonna backfire, baby
We've done it a million times before
Yes, I'm up for it a million more