May is almost over and good riddance! Things are all starting to fall into place and work out accordingly. The only thing I don't know is whether or not I'll get that extra AT&T charge, and if so, will I be able to dispute it. It would be very comforting to be able to keep that extra $100 in my savings. I paid off my medical bill, and paid for my cavity to be filled finally. I need to get informed as possible about loans, and take out an appropriate one for school. The only problem is that I have to be as cheap as possible for the next month or so. It's difficult to not spend money right now, because I want to do fun stuff with my boyfriend, and I won't let him pay for everything. If I keep on this spending habit, I'll never have any money for new clothes, and I'll be a sad panda. On the plus side, I bought a new bikini and I finally got some office appropriate wedge heels. We'll see if they fit and if I like them when they arrive. I mostly need to focus on tops and dresses. I'm luckily pretty set when it comes to pants and shorts. I'm going to shop with a strict budget in mind, like at Plato's Closet and Discovery.
My face had gotten so bad the past few weeks, that on Monday I decided it was the final straw. I literally had giant breakouts all over my face with little ones making my face look like the moon. On top on that, I had this one on the bridge of my nose that erupted into an oozing crater. The awesome part of all of this was that on Monday I met my boyfriend's parents and some of his friends. I pretty much just wanted to die the entire time, but I have time to redeem myself in the physical appearance department. I at least had a good time otherwise, and I really like his parents. My diet should really be helping, so I decided maybe there's something else at play here. The only things I've changed are #1 no tanning, #2 self-tanner, #3 new foundation. So that was it for me, I reverted back. I signed up for a tanning package, because one place was offering 2 months free, and that works out perfect! I won't have to pay for it in the months I'm hurting most. I stopped using my new foundation and self-tanner. My face is already almost 100% better. Also I've got a good base color after 2 days of tanning for 10 minutes, so talk about instant gratification. My sister wasn't able to cut my hair yet, but I'm going to beg her this weekend. Otherwise, I might end up going somewhere, but I just have a gut feeling I'd regret trusting something that complicated to anyone else.
Anyhow despite money and appearance woes, I'm just doing awesome. I've been smiling for weeks, despite my self-esteem crisis lately. My boyfriend keeps telling me how beautiful I am, how smart I am, what he likes about me. He keeps surprising me with things, sends me pictures of cute things while I'm at work, and gives me like 3 back rubs a day. He cooks me breakfast and dinner, or takes me out to dinner. I'm typing this and it sounds ridiculous, but it's real and it's happening! Am I dreaming? I'm so damn lucky it's insane. It's definitely shower and bed time now.
