rain.

My hair didn't come out as dark as I imagined it would, but that's okay. It's inspired me to just go back to my natural color. Next time my hair needs to be done, that's what I'll do. I'm actually excited about being a brunette again. I have more random money woes, but I don't even feel like getting into it. I dropped off my loan plea (essentially what it is) at the college, so they said I should hear back in about two weeks. After a decade of being totally fine, my wisdom teeth have decided it's time to go. One of them is aching and doesn't look very well at all. I have a consultation on July 20th, and a subsequent financial breakdown penciled in for that evening which will involve crying and chocolate. The positives of this upcoming month are the fact that I own a sailor shirt:

Also, I've been watching some beautiful movies, and I bought three new Nabokov books. More on that in a later post!

inspiration.

It's 10:30 at night, and I just finished watching Rosemary's Baby. It was such a wonderful and suspenseful movie, but I did giggle when they were chanting "Hail Satan!". I love the way my nail polish is fading off my nails, and in the span of the movie, a little bee died on my bathroom windowsill.
I love my new bangs, but they need to grow just a little bit longer to be perfect. I wasn't sure what length I wanted. I've also decided to dye it a bit darker this weekend. I really want this color, but I'm sure it won't be that perfect:

I'm working on my tan, and my skin is getting much better.

I'm currently in love with black strappy shoes, especially with frilly socks. There are so many cute things I want, but can't currently buy. Instead, I'll admire.

 I think this tapestry would look so amazing behind my bed.

 Want this dress so bad! It's sold out in my size anyhow :(

movie weekend.

I painted my nails some Easter themed pink, and I'm putting off taking a shower. If I do, I accept it's time to get to bed for work in the morning. I just hate getting up, but I do look forward to work. I watched a few movies this weekend:

Baby Love (1968)

I liked this movie a lot, especially the fashion. Luci is 15 when her mom commits suicide, because of unrequited love from Luci's dad (her high school sweetheart). In her suicide note, she requests Luci's dad to take her into his family. Considering she has some serious unresolved emotional/mental issues, she starts to terrorize the family one-by-one. It was pretty interesting, and disturbing.

Noce Blanche (1989)

A french film with subtitles about a troubled student obsessed with her philosophy teacher. I keep thinking what else to write, but I feel like anything I say would give away interesting plot points. It's a lot more thought-provoking than sleazy, and ended up being a lot deeper than I imagined from the premise.

Girly (1970)

"A wealthy, fatherless British clan kidnaps bums and hippies and forces them to participate in an elaborate role-playing game in which they are the perfect family; those who refuse or attempt escape are ritualistically murdered." -IMDB
This was a really fun and bizarre movie.

enrichment.

I've applied to college, and I've received some indeterminate amount of financial aid for it. Around the 25th when the summer semester forms are available, I will prove my residency and take the placement test. I'm more nervous about the written essay portion of the exam than I am the math part. I'm so self-conscious about my writing these days. I haven't written an essay in almost a decade... I feel so old saying that. I'm pretty sure I'm going to take Math, Biology, English, and Russian to start. I'm going to be super busy, but I think it'll be good for me. I feel like my brain has atrophied at this point, and maybe some over-stimulation is what I need. I've also written out a huge list of things that I've been meaning to watch and read. I'm sure I'll make a blog post about each one. Currently I'm reading Anna Karenina. I have a lot of opinions and thoughts about it so far, but I'm only 30% done according to my kindle app. I'll reserve judgment for when I finish. I signed my apartment lease, and I've bought a lot of things I need so far. Skipping over practical stuff for now, I want Paul & Joe cosmetics sooooo bad. Just look:

moving on.

I'm posting infrequently, because it's hard to articulate my thoughts right now. Well, maybe not really so much... they're actually at a deafening pitch in my head all day, but I'm not ready to deal with a lot of them just yet. I'm very happy to say I'm finally moving out on my own. I'll have my own studio apartment with all my own things, and my own food. I'm pretty sure the first thing I want to bake for myself is zucchini bread, mmm. I'm getting very excited with all the decorating possibilities to make this a comforting place. I'm not sure what type of bed I want to get yet (a lifted bed so Nietzsche could have extra space, a day bed for ample room, or a bed with drawers on the bottom for extra storage). I'm kind of leaning towards the daybed since it would give me more space plus Nietzsche could go under it. I really like this comforter set, since it breaks from my typical black & white. I might need a vanity table and a desk, or perhaps one that could be used as both. I definitely plan on getting a full length mirror, since I've never had one. I'm absolutely 100% going to finally buy a street lamp for my room. I like this one because it has a planter build in so I can have some plants as well. Lily of the valley and some shade loving grasses, most likely. I also need some glow in the dark stars, pretty lights, and a bed crown of sorts. I haven't fallen in love with a shower curtain or bathroom theme just yet, but I've got some time. Anyhow, I'm excited!

fresh start.

Time & time again I always claim I'll keep up with blogging. It's true this time, I swear on my life. I'm going to need an outlet for at least the next few months, and hopefully beyond. I'll have moving, new friend, and school adventures. Before the chaos starts, my goal is to read a few books, watch some movies, and re-watch Twin Peaks.

I finished this book quickly, because it was short. It was a very good pick-me-up, because the letters feel like they're written to you. It was very inspiring, and I'm glad I finally read it.