One chapter of my life has ended, and a new one will start. I'm single now, and it's okay. My mornings start with the calming sound of purring in my ear from my favorite pillow-hog. My weekdays were smiles, longing stares, and making sure my lipgloss is perfect. It's only Saturday, but this weekend weather has put me in a good mood. My best friend is sick, so I'm putting off the start of apartment decorating until next weekend. My new bed should be delivered then, so that certainly works out. I'm appreciating where I am in life, and how proud I am of myself. Monday I'll get to register for classes. I'm thinking Russian, English, Math, and Biology. The Russian class is for fun, and so I could potentially make some new friends. English isn't necessary for most dental hygiene programs, but I want it to be my primary focus. Becoming a better writer is the one thing I want to get out of my college experience.
There's finally some legitimate research about diet and acne, so everyone could stop calling me crazy! Here's one from NPR. When I first started my sugar-free journey two years ago, I had very limited knowledge on the subject. I knew that the grams of sugar listed on labels were just a small piece of the puzzle for what actually affects blood sugar. Without having any basis other than anecdotes and personal experience linking my horrible skin with my diet (which was never really that bad!), I felt like going into it 100% was an overkill. Yes, I knew carbs were part of the picture, but I kept thinking eating a piece of bread just really shouldn't affect me... Well, I'm wrong. I'm taking it very seriously now, and I'm limiting carbs as well. It's been about two weeks, and I feel amazing. I'm eating more fruits, vegetables, real oatmeal (not instant), almond milk, nuts, seeds, meat, fish, etc. I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything, because being healthy is way better than the temporary joy of a cupcake. On the plus side, there's plenty of alternative recipes out there. Sugar-free key lime pie, anyone?
I'm going to focus my new free time on just enjoying all the beauty life has to offer. I know that's cheesy, but there are so many things that fill me with warmth. The way the sun feels on my skin, the look of dust dancing in the light, the thought of spring flowers starting to bloom, dancing in my room to cabaret voltaire in my underwear, getting excited about making heart-shaped ice cubes with the tray I bought from Ikea, the scent of Juicy Couture's Fleur perfume, a new purse, the sweet taste of apples, putting on pastel lingerie to pretend I'm Marie Antoinette, wondering what new bikini I should buy, noticing how nice the men look in their fancy suits downtown, and I caught the first scent of a campfire today.
Someone out there is going to make me feel really special, and put a smile on my face. If that never happens, well, that's okay too. I can honestly say that I'm happy with everything I have, and I know how lucky I am.
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life — It goes on." - Robert Frost
